My Biggest Fear

My biggest fear with living with diabetes isn't what most people would guess: "I might die from this disease."  I'm not stupid, I KNOW I will die from this disease.  What scares the hell out of me is knowing that a disease could potentially be found and I will be too old to get it.  Or I will have had diabetes for too long to get the cure.  Its not like once a cure is found, BOOM, everyone will be cured within a few days.  No, it will take years and years of being on a waiting list.  Then, who gets to go first?  The newly diagnosed?  The youngest?  It certainly won't be me, the girl who has had it her whole life.  Why save her?  She's bound to have things start to go wrong soon anyways, no point wasting a good cure for someone who has been sick so long.  That my friends, is what scares me.  I am past the curing point.  I'm no longer a curable candidate.